Question by : These are memories from when I was a baby do you think it’s okay?
I remember being all alone in my room filled with toys when I was two ( I was really tiny). Of course I remember blacking out with asthma and I had asthma from 1-2 years old. I remember being really tiny, three years old and being in my closet and exploring it.
Now that I look back.. I would never put my own child in the situations I was put in.
For some reason I had a dream when I was very young and it stuck with me. My dream was that I was flying. My I was flying through my stairway and there was echoing from another room that I could see too.. Then I was at the top of the stairs and my dad threw me down the stairs. He was trying to make me do a cartwheel down the stairs and I fell down.
I also remember from when I was very young that I was in a house that had yellow seats, a friend of my mother’s and fathers. I later on found photographs of the where about I had remembered. I just remember very faintly and I think there was some sort of smoke.
My mom is a narcissist and tries to make me believe I have mental illnesses. She will come to my room smiling and asking if someone upstairs said “hello” and that she heard someone upstairs. After I tell her no she will lie saying my head ache is actually lime disease and then threatens to lock me up in a center. (I am twenty three.) Everything that she is being, as I am there aimless.. (I’m a dark blonde and she has black hair) she actually tries to turn it as if since I am being confronted, she thinks it’s her rules, so, me interacting is coming to her as she is culting and she cannot even see that I am opposing her, she is too manipulative.
Why was I wondering in a closet when I was three years old.
There is also a video that my mom hid. She was throwing toys in my face nearly and saying “go to sleep” that is the message that was supposed to get across to me when I was a year old.
She took an excessive amount of pictures of me naked. I was very disturbed at the never ending photographs of me naked. Luckily God blessed me with like color changing eyes, so if I go blind from having brown eyes, hopefully the yellow will start to kick in. Does that work? Hopefully my eyes can adapt safely and turn gold.. I always had eye problems and felt as if my eyes were physically traumatized when I was very young.. I used to do my homework with the house nearly all dark and my mom would yell at me, but that was more comfortable and I always got A’s.
No, idiot, it’s not paranoia.. I’ll run outside naked without a care.. Gad. I’m not the same as you. I’m pretty, I glow in the moonlight, my soft hair is angelic, I love to be outside and I love my lifestyle how I choose it. It’s just that strange past.. Kinda like.. Ya.. I brought myself up, there was no one there… Okay? Lol. How I see is was my parents were disabled, firstly.. I think they are just not my parents. A horrible even had happened which left me abandoned. But what do you think of it, not me?
So does my Mom have paranoa? paranoia?
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